Christmas Essays (1525 words) - Nicole Schmitz, Star Magic

Christmas 997......................... It is the start of a new year and I thought I would start a journal chronicling my daily experiences. Tonight we decided to go to the local F.O.P. lodge to a New Years Eve party. We had a pretty good time but what happened later that evening is something that I hope I dont forget for a long time to come. Still fresh in my mind was the conversation Angela and I had on Christmas night. She was hinting that she wasnt sure if she wanted to be in a serious relationship this soon after the breakup of her previous one. If that wasnt hard enough on Christmas she also was to ill to attend my brothers wedding with me in Madison Indiana . To add to all the confusion in my head, on my way home I stopped and got her a rose and a happy New Years balloon. She seemed quite touched by the gesture but also visibly troubled by it. I asked her if she was ready to have a good time tonight and she said I was but now I dont know. Now what in the world does that mean! I tried applying all sorts of significa nt meanings to that statement but in the end I decided to just let it go and let events unfold as they would. Fast forward to 2 minutes before midnight. Angela is an absolute goddess, she is very beautiful and one of the nicest, sweetest woman I have ever met, but she is not one given to affection, especially public affection. Well at 2 minutes till she laid a kiss on me that lasted well after midnight. She absolutely blew me away!! The rest of the night was nice, we went to a couple more clubs but that moment is burned into my memory. Everything else paled in comparison. I dont know if it is possible but I think I kissed her with my heart as well as my lips. I have heard of your minds eye, but tonight I found my hearts mouth................. January 2, 1997 I slept very happily all morning. I guess we were up a little later than I thought. I think my mind is still reeling from last night. I dont know what Im going to do with my self since Monday Night football is off, and Buffalo is out of the playoffs. One thing is for sure I know Angela is glad of that. We spent a nice relaxing day together doing nothing but laying on the couch. It was great! Well thats the extent of my new years day. Ive got to get ready for work, which by the way is the low point of my day. January 3, 1997 T.G.I.F! Angela and I went to go see the movie Jerry Maguire. It was really good, but Angela was convinced that the only reason I went to see it was because I knew she wanted to see it. That was part of the reason but I wasnt going to tell her that. She gets upset sometimes when she thinks Im doing something just for her. Go figure, you would think that would be a good thing. Oh well I guess God knew what he was doing when he made women as utterly confusing as he did........................ January 4, 1997 Saturday, I love Saturdays. Its a day I dont have to do anything. Fortunately NFL playoffs are going on. I think Green Bay and San Francisco are playing today. I hope Green Bay wins. I have decided that by the time my birthday rolls around I will quit smoking. Good luck huh? Im sure that once I start school my Saturdays wont be as relaxing as they are now. What Im really worried about is that when I start school I wont have near the time, or money to do things with Angela and she will get bored with me. Its funny, when I was dating Sonya she would have put up with just about anything just to see me in school. Now Im worried that Angela wont want to wait for a college student. Well maybe Im just creating all this in my head. After all she is